Vicarious living

"I need something to be good. I need something to feel right. OK? I’m not depressed. My heart is not broken. I’m not grieving. She’s not dead. She’s out there. She’s living out her dreams. And I know, I know she’s happy. And that makes me feel proud for her. But there is this other feeling that doesn’t completely feel fair. Or right. Or good. She goes on day in and day out, happy without me. And every morning I wake up and there’s this pit, this feeling here that maybe my dreams are over. Maybe, maybe I had my dreams, and they’re over now. And I’m going to be this single guy. No wife, no kids, no family. She was my family. And now she’s someplace else, and I let her go. And it’s good that I did. I mean, it’s better for her. But for me…

So I need something to be good. I need a reason to get up every morning, to not crawl back in that cave that I was in before I met her. You know she saved me. You were there. You remember how I was. I was dark. That war made me dark. And that darkness, it is still in me. She just lit it up. So I just thought, I just thought, maybe to beat back that darkness, I would be something good. I would do something good.”

- Owen Hunt, Grey’s Anatomy - Season 11, Episode 3

Wednesday Oct 15 8pm  

 
 

sharpayevons:

"At least you love me." I say to my pet as I hold them against my chest as they try to get away

(via getmetoanunnery)

Saturday Aug 16 8pm  250,172 notes

 
 

Can you smelllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

Can you smelllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

(Source: colo-r-coated, via voodoobrew)

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I couldn’t wait for Throwback Thursday because it’s freaking Jason Kidd looking like Sisqo.

I couldn’t wait for Throwback Thursday because it’s freaking Jason Kidd looking like Sisqo.

• Posted Monday Jul 21 2pm  

 
 

Watch

I can’t sleep so here’s Sara Bareilles slowing down “Goodbye Yellow Brick Road” and killing it.

Posted Monday Feb 17 12am  2 notes with

 
 

Let’s Talk? Let’s Talk.

Let me preface this by saying that I suck at this whole “talking-about-my-personal-experiences” thing. But throughout this entire day I’ve been encountering story after story the power of overcoming the silence and stigma of mental illness through the #BellLetsTalk hashtag. So, powered by my internet heroes, here goes…

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Tuesday Jan 28 11pm  3 notes

 
 

wraparoundcurl:

HENRIK LUNDQVIST IS SO PRETTY IS PAINS ME.
THIS MAN IS A HOCKEY PLAYER.
HE’S SWEDISH AND MODELS SOMETIMES. 
HE’S SO HANDSOME I WANT TO HIT HIM WITH A SHOVEL.

wraparoundcurl:

HENRIK LUNDQVIST IS SO PRETTY IS PAINS ME.

THIS MAN IS A HOCKEY PLAYER.

HE’S SWEDISH AND MODELS SOMETIMES. 

HE’S SO HANDSOME I WANT TO HIT HIM WITH A SHOVEL.

(Source: brianboyler)

View HD • Posted Sunday Jan 26 6pm  252 notes

 
 

A Little Close to Home

Note: I’m lifting my social media sabbatical/reduction to write this for my cathartic needs. Watching the news is enough saturation for me. I don’t need to have my heart and resolve reduced by insensitive tweets and comments.



My mom is supposed to be leaving for the Philippines next week. For months, she has been burning oil late at work and coming home after 7 so that the pile of paperwork upon her return from the motherland would be slightly more bearable.

Last night, we had to have a family meeting about whether or not it was even possible, let alone safe for her to make this trip. How there would be no way that she could tend to her business or take a much-needed vacation amidst all the chaos around her. How her own life would be placed in the centre of danger, which she actually forgot to consider.

Apparently, this is the damage Haiyan left in its wake in my mother’s hometown.

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Tuesday Nov 12 8pm  2 notes

 
 

Dear ESPN,
This dude just scored 4 freaking goals tonight the least you can do is have his face on your database.
Don’t change.

Dear ESPN,

This dude just scored 4 freaking goals tonight the least you can do is have his face on your database.

Don’t change.

View HD • Posted Tuesday Oct 8 11pm  3 notes

 
 

College football starts tomorrow

Excuse me while I rejoice by marinating meat overnight.

Wednesday Aug 28 10pm  1 note

 
 
 
 
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